…I have no idea, but I know that God calls the unqualified…
But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong. God chose the lowly things of this world and the despised things—and the things that are not—to nullify the things that are, so that no one may boast before Him.
1 Corinthians 1:27-29
I am not a writer, but this is what I have been called to do. Writing was put on my heart about 15+ years ago, and I laughed it off. Me, write??? What a joke! Writing came up again about 2 years ago, and from that time it has only grown stronger. So, after many prayers, I have decided that I need to obey God and write, and this was followed by peace.
I will write about my journey with God, and how He has helped and changed me. This is about Him, all the glory goes to God. I hope that through my experiences I will be able to bring one person some joy, hope, or comfort.
I am going to start this story with what has happened between 6 January 2021 and 16 February 2021. During this time, I have been asking God to change me and show me what He needs me to do. He answered very quickly.
On the 6th of January, I was given my word for the year – BOLD. It was so odd and very clear. This is the first time this has happened to me. Someone asked me a year ago what is my word for the year. I thought they were nuts. How could I possibly have 1 word??? I love words, I couldn’t choose one.
After accepting the word, I realised that I do need to be bolder, and even though my first thought jumped to my business, which is one of my babies and a huge part of my life, it isn’t everything.
I need to be bolder in my faith.
I need to be bolder with my relationships.
I need to be bolder with all my business ventures.
So, I will keep choosing to be BOLD, and writing is VERY bold for me!
A wonderful friend sent me Proverbs 28:1 when I told her about this.
The wicked flee when no one pursues, but the righteous are bold as a lion.
I had a business coaching session on the 12th of Jan. I was feeling stuck with my business and not sure how to move forward, well stuck in life. I wasn’t sure what I would be focusing on in the session, so I made some notes: personal & business. The session was great, the coach is an amazing child of God. At the end of the session, she asks me what I would like to focus on for my business. I sit looking at my notes and my eyes are immediately drawn to the word ‘FAITH’. I say, ‘I want to focus on my faith this year’, and look where this has gotten me in such a short period!
A few days later, a friend sent me this:
On the 7th of February, God told me that I need to forgive myself. I still remember standing at the kitchen sink and hearing His voice clearly. My response: “Ok, for what and how?” This is going to take some time. I feel like I have dealt with the past and never once did I think I need to forgive myself. So, when God answers this for me, I will let you know. I am excited though; it will be so freeing!
Again, on the 7th of February, it was made clear that I do care what others have to say. Well, those closest to me, not random strangers. This was quite a wake-up call and has already started changing my thought pattern in such a short time – overly excited about where this could lead me. After all, I should only be concerned with what God thinks and says. The irony is that I am always preaching this to others…
So we say with confidence, “the Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid. What can mere mortals do to me?”
This one hit me – I must not work for free. This realisation happened on the 9th of February. I love helping people, I want to see others succeed but I was starting to be a charity within my business for business owners, and it was affecting me in more ways than one. God blessed me with many talents, talents meant to provide for my household, and others, but I was allowing others to take advantage of my skills. A lot of people will misunderstand what I am saying – I am a self-employed single mom, I struggle financially. As much as I want to help everyone, I need to think of my children. I need to put a roof over their heads and food in their tummies. I simply need to find the balance which I know God will help me with.
But remember the Lord your God, for it is He who gives you the ability to produce wealth
1 Corinthians 7:23
God paid a great price for you. So don’t become slaves of anyone else.
My next realisation was on the 11th of February – I had to de-clutter/re-evaluate all relationships. This I thought I was doing regularly, I missed something. I am currently in this process and prayerful about it.
The righteous choose their friends carefully, but the way of the wicked leads them astray.
As you can see, God answered my prayers very quickly. It is a lot to process and understand but I find comfort in God and know that He will help me through the process. I am grateful for the change to come.
God loves all of us. He always answers prayers. His timing is perfect. This is His story.
Keeping it simply raw & real.
Your sister in Christ.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways submit to him,
and he will make your paths straight