Why only now?
Like I have mentioned before, I was reborn in 2006. Anyone who has experienced this will know how beautiful it is. You are filled with new life and see everything differently.
It is not an easy road, but definitely worth it.
Even though my love for God increased, I was still making many mistakes. Looking back, I think my biggest mistake was not having a strong Christian community to be involved with. This wasn’t because there wasn’t any, it’s because I didn’t realise that is what I needed. We all need guidance and we need fellow Christians around us who can help guide us and support us.
Week after week. Month after month. Year after year. I was still making mistakes. I was making bad choices (generally in hindsight).
I always needed to be busy, never wanted to be alone in my mind. Always needed a distraction. Always needed something to work on. If I didn’t have a goal, no matter how big or small, I felt like life had no purpose.
We need to practice the pause for many lessons are learned there.
I needed to be quiet – I couldn’t.
I needed to spend time with God so I could hear Him – I didn’t.
I would go to church, I would pray but it wasn’t enough. I needed to participate. Again, I only realise this in hindsight but what an awesome God we serve. A God that loves us unconditionally, forgives us, and protects us. If it wasn’t for His protection, I wouldn’t be here today (that’s a story for another day).
Only many, many years later, did I decide to participate in my faith. To put in the effort, to learn, and I wish I did it sooner.
Our walk with God is a journey, not a race or competition. God’s timing is perfect. He has gone before us. It is along the journey that knowledge and understanding are gained, it is where the experience happens, it is where the growth takes place.
The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.
Choose to participate in your faith, you will not be disappointed.
Keeping it simply raw and real.
Your sister in Christ.