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Broken.

Broken.

We live in a world broken beyond repair.

A place where no one cares and they are self-serving.  A place where respect is unknown, and crime, violence, and hatred are acceptable, it is the norm.

A place that people think you have ulterior motives if you try to do good.  A place where children aren’t taught how to be decent human beings.  A place where Christians are expected to accept and listen to others’ beliefs but are crucified for who they believe in – a living God.

A place where relationships are shallow.  A place where if you are honest or just giving your opinion, you are guaranteed to offend someone. A place where you can’t be yourself because you will be judged, condemned, and thrown aside.

A place where you must agree with everything others say or you hate them.

Sound peachy, right?

This behaviour and thought pattern makes me angry and sad, and it adds to a difficult life.

I am a self-employed single mother, with no family or friends nearby.  I work hard to put a roof over our heads and food on the table.  I have strong values that dictate my behavior and decisions.  I try to be a good example to my children, hoping that they will have the same strong values, and work ethic one day. My children are taught manners and they are respectful to everyone they meet. 

I am writing for God so that He can help others through me, and I am at the beginning phase of a new ministry. And I work on/in my business, daily, with a new business in its starting phase.

I am not perfect. I sin.  I fail.  I cry. I breakdown. At times I feel like giving up and at other times I shout out to God.

I know my shortcomings, but I also know my strengths, and this is what I need to focus on in this broken world, and hopefully help someone.

I love God.  I have great values that I live by. I am honest (I just lack the tact at times). I am hardworking.  I am understanding and compassionate.  I believe in speaking life, building others up, and helping them move forward in life.  I am authentic.

Now, the following is hurtful and I feel that people really need to focus their energy on something positive, or even on their personal development.

I am judged for being a single mom.  No one cares about who I am, what makes me tick.  I guess it is easier to judge someone, and it is quicker than getting to know a person.

I have been told that single mothers ‘are the problem’ – not sure which problem this man was referring to.  Society has labelled single mothers as the scum of the earth, it is almost like we are some deadly contagious disease – I am not over exaggerating – we are seriously judged, avoided, and condemned.

People want you to make them feel comfortable, and I do the opposite – I am a single mom who asks questions.  Want to make someone uncomfortable – ask them a tough question about themselves.

With the new ministry being laid on my heart now, I have found people assuming that I have ulterior motives. Again, broken world where anything good is foreign. I am being judged and condemned by people from all walks of life, including Christians.

Thankfully, I understand projection but that doesn’t always make all the judgment and condemnation easier.

People have become mindless sheep following the wrong shepherd. People believe the media and give in to the fear-mongering. People will condemn you for asking questions, being authentic, for not fitting into their box.

We must ask more questions.  We can not conform to the pattern of this broken world any longer. Our minds must be renewed through Christ.  We must keep our focus vertical.  He is our only hope.

Even though I struggle, have down days, days where I just was to throw in the towel, days where it feels like my world is crumbling in, days where I feel lost and alone, my values will always come through.  I will always turn to God, whether in silent prayer, worship, or screaming.  I will always have the desire to help others.  I will always be authentic.

God is with me, always.  He knows me better than I know myself.  He has gone before me.  He has this undeniable, unmeasurable love for me.  He understands and He sees my heart.  So even though this broken world can become too much at times, I must simply rest in His love, even when I don’t feel His presence.

Just because the world is broken, doesn’t mean you need to participate in the brokenness.  The choice is yours.  We have the ability to change ourselves, and that will have a snowball effect.  We all have something unique to ‘bring to the table’. 

Let us celebrate each other’s differences, and find a way to work together.  We are all God’s workmanship.

What choices are you making today?

Keeping it simply raw and real.

Your sister in Christ.

 

Ephesians 2:10

For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.

 

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